Negative
Yes I'm always negative when I post here aren't I?
No reason to break a tradition eh?
I'm never ever going to meet a girl (one night stands etc.), let alone have a girlfriend am I? No didn't think so, really is my only sexual experience going to have been with a girl I've known since childhood and involved so much goddamn alcohol I don't remember a thing!!!!
Guess so, well I don't like it and despite my attempts at fixing this nasty situation nothing good or relatively positive has come from it. Actually the situation has gotten worse, I'm sick and tired of this goddamn fear of ppl and making an ass out of myself (I have social phobia, look it up and you'll understand).
I really dislike myself, I'm so scared that even when I have the slightest inkling of a girl looking my way I panic, if I see a girl I know I could have I panic, if I get hit on even when drunk I panic........end results I run away and end up spending a significant time building up a courage to face ppl again because I imagine that everybody knows that I chickened out again, damn do I hate myself.
I can't understand how I'm supposed to live like this, heh perhaps this is nature's way of telling me that I'm not supposed to live at all (Darwin's survival of the fittest and all...). Still I'm bound to live out this pathetic existance trying......to do anything.
well enough about my problems of reprodution and passing on my defected substandard genes and genetic material (not to mention enjoying a basic human need).
Later
Skaz
No reason to break a tradition eh?
I'm never ever going to meet a girl (one night stands etc.), let alone have a girlfriend am I? No didn't think so, really is my only sexual experience going to have been with a girl I've known since childhood and involved so much goddamn alcohol I don't remember a thing!!!!
Guess so, well I don't like it and despite my attempts at fixing this nasty situation nothing good or relatively positive has come from it. Actually the situation has gotten worse, I'm sick and tired of this goddamn fear of ppl and making an ass out of myself (I have social phobia, look it up and you'll understand).
I really dislike myself, I'm so scared that even when I have the slightest inkling of a girl looking my way I panic, if I see a girl I know I could have I panic, if I get hit on even when drunk I panic........end results I run away and end up spending a significant time building up a courage to face ppl again because I imagine that everybody knows that I chickened out again, damn do I hate myself.
I can't understand how I'm supposed to live like this, heh perhaps this is nature's way of telling me that I'm not supposed to live at all (Darwin's survival of the fittest and all...). Still I'm bound to live out this pathetic existance trying......to do anything.
well enough about my problems of reprodution and passing on my defected substandard genes and genetic material (not to mention enjoying a basic human need).
Later
Skaz
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