Stressed out

I'm so f'king stressed now, school, work, favors for friends.....everything.....

I feel like I'm in too deep, school is becoming really stressful, not showing up for some classes because I simply haven't been there for a while, lots of strangers. I'm retaking some courses and I guess I feel a embarrassed at being there....having failed.

I've always been good at school or at least I was... my grades actually went up as I became more and more socially phobic, guess I didn't have anything else to do. Well what pisses me of is that I'm getting more and more phobic now again and my grades are seriously slipping.

I hate to say it but I think that I'm failing those courses AGAIN....

But enough of this, my flatmate is getting curious that I keep putting this window down every time that he walks by, I'm not going to reveal this page to anyone I know in person because that'll ruin it as my secret confession diary of sorts.....

plus I only write here to went, to write the things that I don't want them to know yet. But have to write about.

But why keep it in public? I don't know, some psychological need for recognition?

naaaahhhh......