That twitch......OBEY the twitch!!!!
Yes I have this uncontrolable twitch below my lower right eyelid and it's driving me crazy. Whenever I need to read or focus on something, e.g. a computer screen, it starts to twitch...
Talking about reading, I'm likely flunking in some of my courses, seems that there is a required attendance in some of them and especially in those of whom overlap in my schedule. I signed up for too many I guess.....
But I knew this was a risk, and I had already done the first part of a course that I decided to neglect the former part of to focuse on a another course that I hadn't taken before, then I was going to prioritize based on need and discretion.
That plan seems to have failed miserably.
Lets see, my schedule is as follows 40% work, 120% school......
I'm saying this because my Social anxiety has been kicking in also, my attendance wouldn't be half this bad if I weren't afraid to go to class, I'm actually fearing that people will notice me and I'll come off as the guy who keeps skipping classes....
I can't explain this...you know...so illogical but feels logical...and scary as hell.
But my point is this, I'm making my rent by working with school, sacrificing some of my study time for money. The rest of the time I'm studying like a looney, but now I've stopped attending classes because I had to skip some again and again....
now where am I going to fit a psychiatric/psychologist into this budget and timetable....
I'm screwed...
Talking about reading, I'm likely flunking in some of my courses, seems that there is a required attendance in some of them and especially in those of whom overlap in my schedule. I signed up for too many I guess.....
But I knew this was a risk, and I had already done the first part of a course that I decided to neglect the former part of to focuse on a another course that I hadn't taken before, then I was going to prioritize based on need and discretion.
That plan seems to have failed miserably.
Lets see, my schedule is as follows 40% work, 120% school......
I'm saying this because my Social anxiety has been kicking in also, my attendance wouldn't be half this bad if I weren't afraid to go to class, I'm actually fearing that people will notice me and I'll come off as the guy who keeps skipping classes....
I can't explain this...you know...so illogical but feels logical...and scary as hell.
But my point is this, I'm making my rent by working with school, sacrificing some of my study time for money. The rest of the time I'm studying like a looney, but now I've stopped attending classes because I had to skip some again and again....
now where am I going to fit a psychiatric/psychologist into this budget and timetable....
I'm screwed...
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