hey

Long time, guess what? I'm the same as ever, phobic and shit, just a tad more drugged up now, yep I've started taking Rivotril (klonopin) again but a higher dose which I gwt to decide mostly, I think 1 mg is doing wonders compared to 0.5-0.75.....Really want to try upping it even to 1.50 or 2 mg.

I'm feeling like I'm stuck in a rut right now, my life being a routine of breathing, sleeping working and such, you know the dull routine cliche.

I feel like I'm having a midlife crisis at 24 years old, I want to go out and do stuff, "well why don't you then" is a phrase I ought to be getting and the answer is a combination of having no social network, phobia, and such.

I'd lke to meet a girl, just for whatever, not even anything longterm, even 1 night stands (at least I'm ready to talk about sex, some shyness gone there) But I'm afraid to..lets say that I wouldn't know the horses tail from it's head...

goddamn this is a rant....