tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-61878822011-04-21T21:01:13.933ZMy outlet of cheap designer opinions and rantsGeirinnnoreply@blogger.comBlogger211100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1157764506672999592006-09-09T01:04:00.000Z2006-09-09T23:47:55.580Z

Long time, guess what? I'm the same as ever, phobic and shit, just a tad more drugged up now, yep I've started taking Rivotril (klonopin) again but a higher dose which I gwt to decide mostly, I think 1 mg is doing wonders compared to 0.5-0.75.....Really want to try upping it even to 1.50 or 2 mg.I'm feeling like I'm stuck in a rut right now, my life being a routine of breathing, sleeping working

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1151119718079438522006-06-24T03:25:00.000Z2006-06-24T03:28:38.090Z

maaaaan I´m drunk and I went out and couldn´t even bring home a girl.... not that I ever really have...I was drunk, confident, looked but didn´t try at all... I haye social phobia and all it´s side effects such as this....I'll always end up like this alone...damn.

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1148353946076419612006-05-23T02:56:00.000Z2006-05-23T03:12:26.086Z

I have some dreams of what kind of a person I'd like to be and the ways to achieve that goal. But best laid plans...you know.I'd really like to serve in the armed forces but guess what I was born in a country which has none, so any attempt to join any army is somewhat hard because of the "terrorists" and the understandable foreign phobia...I guess that there's always the French Foreign Legion and

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1146547328244380942006-05-02T05:00:00.000Z2006-05-02T05:22:08.256Z

ok so I'm from a small town, and "where everybody knows your name" is almost a fact here, not quite but really close, and when something happens that I'm afraid of being teased about or can't really talk abou on my normal blog I write here, and seeing as there are 5 months between posts, not much happens to me...But now I'm ready to write it here on my "secret blog" which nobody knows about

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1136596957507848782006-01-07T01:08:00.000Z2006-01-07T01:22:37.516Z

Long time since my last post here, well I generally just post here when I'm frustrated and etc. so that's a good thing? Well I hate my life, I'm unfulfilled by it to say the least... I can mostly blaim it on my social phobia though, "isn't that convenient?" some would say, but to me it's even more annoying because it is something I'm trying to get rid of...My so called life isn't living, I just

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1121392544166881332005-07-15T01:43:00.000Z2005-07-15T01:55:44.173Z

I was going to let out some steam and tell everybody how damn miserable my life has become or is becoming, not quite sure, but I'm already spent...guess I have to write while I'm still in the mood.But I'm still alive and I'm still phobic and afraid of ppl, actually I'm afraid that its getting worse after a short remission, this thing is going to kill me that I am sure of, also I had a fever that

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1110329384706081152005-03-09T00:47:00.000Z2005-03-09T00:49:44.706Z

I'm in bit of a bundle right now... on one hand I have my job, then school, then my attempts at living some sort of a life...I was trying to get to sleep last night but I couldn't, because I was feeling sick and everytime I moved I nearly vomited.... :-But anyway I started to thinkMy attempts at trying to live a "normal" life have so far just ended in failure and in me going back into my shell,

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1108536336511309252005-02-16T06:30:00.000Z2005-02-16T06:45:36.513Z

Yes I have this uncontrolable twitch below my lower right eyelid and it's driving me crazy. Whenever I need to read or focus on something, e.g. a computer screen, it starts to twitch...Talking about reading, I'm likely flunking in some of my courses, seems that there is a required attendance in some of them and especially in those of whom overlap in my schedule. I signed up for too many I guess..

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1107655696752500072005-02-06T01:54:00.000Z2005-02-06T02:08:16.753Z

I'm so f'king stressed now, school, work, favors for friends.....everything..... I feel like I'm in too deep, school is becoming really stressful, not showing up for some classes because I simply haven't been there for a while, lots of strangers. I'm retaking some courses and I guess I feel a embarrassed at being there....having failed. I've always been good at school or at least I was... my

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1101837848289818722004-11-30T17:55:00.000Z2004-11-30T18:04:08.290Z

Yeah...don't know what to blog about as usual, just want to write something. I have the cold of death, my throat is sore, my head banging, my nose running, and I have a fever. But look at the bright side, no work or school.... naaahh thats the bad part actually, I've been unusually sick the last 6 months, I'm starting to fear for my job as a result. And school, the goddamn bookstore didn't have

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1101422316925888822004-11-25T22:38:00.000Z2004-11-25T22:38:36.926Z

Like the title says I felt like writing something that won't be taken by anyone I know as a suicidal sign or a hint of depression... (yes I know they're being supportive, but still oppressive) I'm concerned about my life and it's heading, don't know what I'm worried about but I'm still concerned, this is so much babbling from me that I'm gonna stop it here. But nice to rant, even though it's

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1100708577542320732004-11-17T16:12:00.000Z2004-11-17T16:22:57.543Z

Hey long time since I posted here, well probably a good thing since I only seem to post here when I want to rant and don't let other ppl see it, I mean I want this site to be as anonymous for me as possible, and so I can freely talk about things (I haven't told anyone I know about this site as I have another blog that I post on. This one is my "safespot" to put in a way that ppl that play

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1079952569617431922004-03-22T10:49:00.000Z2004-03-22T10:52:53.936Z

.........Myself. .........My social anxiety/phobia. .........My so called life. (not to be confused with the TV show of the same name) .........My non existant social life that can't be corrected because of afore mentioned illness. .........My goddamn cold that has been plagueing me for a week and doesn't seem to be going away. .........My Math/statistic teacher, that stubborn stuck up

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1079152015469475482004-03-13T04:26:00.000Z2004-03-13T04:30:07.250Z

Sometimes I envy my few friends, or at least I think they're my friends. Sometimes though I have to wonder.... I feel sometimes that I'm some sort of a backup that they can brag about all the stuff they're doing and stuff and all that they are doing is with other friends....I hate all these clieqs or grouping that happen, mainly because I tend to get left out and have one or two friends in each

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1074575430733329692004-01-20T05:10:00.000Z2004-01-20T05:12:29.950Z

I want to sleep......but alas my brain or body thinks otherwise....I hate my body already so I guess it doesn't give a fuck about me, it's a love/hate relationship I guess. Talking about my body, I weigh about 93 Kg according to this damn industrial scale we use at work, I guess it's accurate....(It has to be, legally certified and shit) so I'm about 13-18 kg above what I'd like to weigh.....

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1074471702864820472004-01-19T00:21:00.000Z2004-01-19T00:23:40.233Z

Added a commenting system by Haloscan, I wasn't gonna do this, don't actually care for feedback but in a split second insanity I added this, I'm curious so what? I'd like to see ppls opinions although I'm not so sure I'll like them or actually consider them worthy of a response or even viewing them. anyway if there is anyone who actually reads this piece of crap then by all means chat away.....

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1074468931276544782004-01-18T23:35:00.000Z2004-01-18T23:37:28.403Z

Yes I'm always negative when I post here aren't I? No reason to break a tradition eh? I'm never ever going to meet a girl (one night stands etc.), let alone have a girlfriend am I? No didn't think so, really is my only sexual experience going to have been with a girl I've known since childhood and involved so much goddamn alcohol I don't remember a thing!!!! Guess so, well I don't like it and

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1071347009401613662003-12-13T20:23:00.000Z2003-12-13T20:23:42.440Z

Why yes......damn, I can't think of anything else to say considering I'm a day late with an essay that accounts for 70% of my grade and I haven't even started let alone considered a topic for it.........so yes I'm boned...

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1071174407089473502003-12-11T20:26:00.000Z2003-12-11T20:26:59.553Z

I feel rather inclined to quote Fry from Futurama: "I hate my life, I hate my life, I hate my life etc." Remember it's just a quote.......or is it?

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1071026165694693712003-12-10T03:16:00.000Z2003-12-10T03:16:17.856Z

Ok, I'd better start detailing my reasons for this pitiful excuse for a ranting blog, I have long longed for a place to rant and complain and not getting any flak from it from the ppl I know. Ok that's what we all want right? NO fucking RESPONSIBILITY!!!!! Well I'm a "lucky" sufferer of a psychological condition (disease) know as Social phobia/anxiety, and that has hindered me somewhat in

Geirinnnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6187882.post-1071024859978432632003-12-10T02:54:00.000Z2003-12-10T02:54:31.606Z

Always something about the first post in a blog thats so lame......always that AA style that ppl use for introductions or put forth a disclaimer about not going to be really active. Really though I'm just going to use this blog to went steam in a foreign language and under the safety of anonimity.

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